Was doing so good! Was almost 3 years Si free! I screwed up a marriage! My butterfly died tonight! I’m sorry! When I’m all alone I never know how to control myself and calm down! I felt like I had no one tonight! But then again… I didn’t really want anyone around! I thought I was stronger than this! But he has scared me and idk what to do now! I can’t tell her what he did to me! Things might get worse! But ill be fine! I always am! Tomorrow is a new day! Ill put a smile on and try and start the recovery process again! :) happy days! Right?!